Please Go Away Fears?

No one is fearless in the world. Everyone lives with some kind of fear, little or big. Fears can range from the fear of insects, to the fear of failure. I believe even Superman has fears! Therefore, if someone told me that they have no fears, I know that they are lying. One thing I know for sure though, is that I have fears of my own. The first fear that I have is a fear of making the wrong decision. I have this fear because I know that if I make the wrong choice, I will have to face an unpleasant consequence. For instance, at the beginning of this semester, I was not sure if I should stay in the English Enriched class. I was not confident in myself, and believed that I would not be able to handle the class. I was then faced with a dilemma, should I stay in English Enriched, or should I switch out of the class and take regular English. This decision was extremely difficult to make because I feared that I would make the wrong decision, and regret it later on in my life. If I chose to stay in English Enriched, and I was not capable of the workload, I would be really stressed and do poorly. On the other hand, what if the class is really interesting, and will help me improve my English skills? I was really scared at that point, and I did not want to make the wrong decision because it could hurt me. In the end, I chose to stay, and I am grateful that I made the right decision.

My second fear is my fear of embarrassing myself. This fear is a big disadvantage for me because whenever I attempt to avoid embarrassing myself, I tend to do the exact opposite Negative thoughts of failure run through my mind, and these thoughts attack the little confidence that I have. For example, when I play basketball in front of people, I get really nervous because I do not want to embarrass myself by air- balling, or not catching a pass. When I start thinking about all the mistakes that I could make, nervousness starts to creep up on me, and control me. When this happens, I do not do my best, which results in me failing. In other words, I embarrass myself. Another example is when I get nervous about reading or speaking to an audience. My fear of embarrassing myself surfaces when I think of all the things that can go wrong when I read. I could get all tongue-tied, and everyone would not be able to understand me. I could mispronounce a word, and sound stupid. These are all the ways that I could possibly embarrass myself. When I think of all the mistakes that I can make, I get nervous, and when I get nervous I make mistakes. This is a cycle. First I the fear of embarrassing myself suffocate me, then I think negatively, which needs to me being nervous, and results in me embarrassing myself. I wish to be able to break this cycle one day. I guess I just have to overcome my fear.